No 58 day.

Honey,

How are you today? I think You must be fine there, because you don't feel any pain now. Yesterday, I went your home and took something memorable away with me, including the other pictures and your parent's pictures which are in a necklace. I opened it and said, "Hi, I know you maybe don't know me, but your husband does know me. I am kinda your law-in-son (wife), Jakob maybe is with you two guys. Please say hi to him for me." The necklace is with me all the day, it's in my packet of the jacket. Every time I put my hand in the packet, I felt the necklace, and always said that in my heart. Honey, one day, I will open your urn again, and will put the necklace with you. Don't worry about it.

Really, today, it's a kinda hard day for me too. Why? you know it. But I should change my mind that I always think that I am lonely emotion. I have to be happy and satisfied with you're in my heart. The day of tomorrow, it'll be the eve of Chinese New Year, and I will go back to Taichung, then Tainan. I will leave Tony and Suzie for three days. DON'T WORRY ABOUT THEM. I will leave a lot of food in their bowls. I will clean the kitty litter before I go.

Honey, my friend said, why i am still in that emotion? it's been a long time. I should put myself together now. I know, I've been trying it out every day, every day. To change how I feel about you is so hard... but I really can't change it right now. Honey, I think I will be fine, I have to be....

Gotta take a shower now, Honey... 

If you have free time, please come into my dreams and say something to me...  and say hi to Tony and Suzie... okay? That's just my only New Chinese Year Wish one.